16-08-2002 - 02:02
so, i hung out with darrin tuesday night. got coffee at big boy's. went to the local bar. hung out at the park. so, that was interesting.
anyways, after that, i got home and could't sleep like usual. then i finally went to bed sometime after 5:30am. well, i get a call at exactly 8am from luke. luke asks if i want to go to cedar point. half asleep, i say yes. well, we end up going to cedar point and meeting up with wendy, jamie, john, and some guy named heath. it downpours rain to the point where i couldn't see 5 feet in front of me and we scatter towards the cars. well, luke and i lose the others, and go to taco bell. after the rain cuts down a bit, we head back to go on more rides. anyways, to make a long story short, i went on every major ride there with an exception of the demon drop, the wicked twister, the tower of power, and the mantis. and, luke somehow convinced me to sit in the front seat for a few of them. well, being that i almost fell out and died in a roller coaster when i was 12, i have a fear of them. i hadn't even been to cedar point or on a roller coaster since junior high. well, i am still afraid of them, but it was really fun. i still can't believe that i went on them. much fun was had...even though i was soaking wet the whole day/night. (it rained every time i started to dry off).
well, i then got home some time after 2am and ate, and got ready for bed and such.
then i started my 8 day work week today. i am exhausted...and i still can't sleep.
i did start reading the other book i borrowed from matt. haven't been reading much though.
oh...and i almost crashed today. i was driving home from work late due to a last min. call that went over 40 min. well, i'm driving umm...70 down 94 west and as i come around a corner...without any warning, traffic is completely stopped. i slam on my brakes as do the cars around me. the car behind me had to skid into the shoulder of the road to avoid hitting me and the car in the lane next to me actually skidded into the car infront of them. well, road workers had blocked off the entire road for about 10 min, and then only opened up one lane for the rest of the way. i got out at 10:50pm and then didn't get home till 12:30pm. grrr....
well, i think that i'm developing vague interests in two people whom i do not believe are available. one i'm just comfortable around, but i don't think it will be anything more than a vague interest, and i think that that will fade away. the other guy just is hot, interesting, and fun. he likes good music, plays sports, skates, is smart, reads, etc. and i don't really know if i am interested in him, but i just noticed that i look foreward to talking with him...so, i'm not sure about other than friends interests yet. and, i think he's occupied in the dating compacity at this time, but i'm not sure of that either. there's also a couple of cute guys who are paramedics that pop in and around the hospital. hmmmm....the possibilities.
and...yes. i still like shaun. i don't think that those feelings will fade away any time soon. i miss him and nights when i'm sitting home after work, i wonder how he's doing. he had told me that there might be a time where he'd not talk to me for a while, but how am i to know if this is it, or if he's just through with me all together? i'm not going to sit around and wait for him. i'm waiting, but i'm not sitting around while i do so. i'm going out...frolicking around...having fun...but i can't say i've passed the point where if shaun called me up i'd not drive straight out there, but i'm heading in that general direction.
so...
well, i heard this song at the taco bell in sandusky during the rain storm while ceder point was temp. shut down. i'm not really sure why, but the song really stuck and i had to include the whole thing in here.
"he was a boy, she was a girl, can i make it any more obvious? he was a punk, she did ballet, what more can i say? he wanted her, she'd never tell, secretly she wanted him as well, but all of her friends stuck up their nose, they had a problem with his baggy clothes. he was a skater boy, she said see you later boy, he wasn't good enough for her. she had a pretty face, but her head was up in space, she needed to come back down to earth. 5 years form now, she sits at home, feeding the baby, she's all alone. She turns on tv, guess who she sees? skater boy rocking up mtv. she calls up her friends, they already know, and they've all got tickets to see his show. she tags along, stands in the crowd, loos up at the man that she turned down. he was a skater boy, she said see you later boy, he wasn't good enough for her. now he's a superstar, slamming on his guitar, does her pretty face see what he's worth? sorry girl but you missed out. well tough luck, that boy's mine now. we are more than just good friends, this is how the story ends. too bad that you couldn't see, see the man that boy could be. there is more that meets the eye, i see the soul that is inside. he's just a boy, and i'm just a girl, can i make it anymore obvious? we are in love, haven't you heard, how we rock each others world? i'm with skater boy, i said see you later boy, i'll be backstage after the show. i'll be at the studio singing the song we wrote about the girl he used to know. i'm with skater boy, i said see you later boy, i'll be backstage after the show. i'll be at the studio singing the song we wrote about a girl he used to know." -avril lavigne
